Friday, 21 September 2012

Ups, Downs, and saying Goodbyes.

All my posts so far have been about my fun days off, my amazing times with all these great people, and about my wonderful and exciting job.

BUT, the truth is this magical place IS reality for me. For guests it's a place to escape reality, Walt said it himself. However, for cast members here, this is our reality for one year. And in one year, no matter how much fun you have, no matter how many crazy experiences you create for yourself... you are not going to go through this whole journey only experiencing the "Ups". It's an experience you also need to grow and learn from.

Lately, I have been having my down time. And not to say that I do not love it out here, trust me... you and I both know I do. But, I do miss my family and amazing best friends back home. A LOT. Especially in times when I most need them. So besides the little homesickness I have been having, I believe its triggered by what has been going on around here, in Florida... or my Disney life.

Recently I am experiencing the Disney goodbyes. Each cast member starts their contract on a different date and stays for a year. This means you constantly make friends and say bye to friends... and I mean constantly. Every 2 weeks another arrival group comes and another one leaves. Now that I have been here for over 3 months, I have now became attached to people. About a week and a half ago my friend from Germany left. He was one of the people I spent most of my time with here and would consider one of the closest ones to me. So it is really sad to know that people you become close with leave and go back to their life back "home"... which may be half way across the world. On top of that, in 2 1/2 weeks, three of my roommate's leave to go back home to Norway, Germany and Canada, and the forth roommate will also leave to go back home 2 weeks after them. So it'll be me and Michelle (from Germany) left in the house. :( (We do not know yet if we get to keep the place and have newbies move in, or if they will place us in a new apartment.)

As you can tell... it hasn't been all fun and games since I've been here. There are tough times, but these are the times that will make me grow as a person. It's better to have those amazing memories with such great people and get hurt saying goodbye, rather than to not get to know them and to be close to them at all. And since I am saying bye to some of the people I have been the closest to here, I am learning at an early stage of my contract how to handle it.

All in all, this whole experience is a roller coaster. I am loving the ups, learning from the downs, and holding on tight in excitement for what comes next.

-Eileen McDonald

“Goodbye may seem forever. Farewell is like the end, but in my heart is the memory and there you will always be.” - Walt Disney Company